I was looking for something to read the other day and ran across this book. The author’s name sounded familiar and the description sounded like it would dovetail well with my pursuit of grace and love. The Kindle Edition was only $3.99 so I went ahead and ordered it. Just a few pages in she asks some questions,
– Are you more focused on your performance for him than his for you?
– At the end of the day is there a rest in your soul because of him, or is there guilt and a determination that tomorrow you’re going to “do better’?
– Do you still feel the need to prove that you’re not “all that bad”? Do you get angry when people criticize or ignore you?
I knew I needed to keep reading.
I have made it through chapter one, savoring, writing down quotes, pondering. Here are some quotes I have written in my journal:
” If we’re not completely convinced that his love is ours, right now, fully and unalterably ours, we’ll always hide in the shadows, be focused on our performance, fearing his wrath.”
” If you neglect to focus on God’s love for you in Christ, your Christianity will soon be reduced to a program of self improvement – just one of many methods to help you ‘get your act together.'”
” If you’re in Christ today, God’s promise of relationship and identity with him is rooted in his ageless love: I have loved you so much that I sent my Beloved Son to bring you to myself, that in believing this you might have eternal relationship with me. I will be your God, you will be my child. Rest and rejoice in all my love has done to transform you.”
As I read through the book of John and through this book I feel my soul being refreshed. I am seeing the person of Christ in a new way. I don’t know how I missed it before – this reality of Christ being a physical manifestation of God’s love, not just as a person in history, but as my Savior.
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us in Christ with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places, even as he chose us in him before the foundation of the world, that we should be holy and blameless before him. In love he predestined us for adoption as sons through Jesus Christ, according to the purpose of his will, to the praise of his glorious grace, with which he has blessed us in the Beloved. -Ephesians 1:3-6